You can't always get what you want...

....but sometimes you get what you need? IDK about all that, but heres my life recently to get you up to speed. So Thursday, after pulling myself out of the mourning of Ron Burgundy, I went to see Batman for closure/coffee. I of course was looking adorable, because I wanted to have the aura about me that says " I look good, I mean really good. Feast your heart out! Oh, whats that? you miss me? Yeah, I'd miss me too" I strutted into Barnes and Noble where we've had many a deep conversation and make out sessions and felt ready to come out on top. Batman's first words were "wow, you look nice" to which I proudly walked over to the counter and ordered my espresso. We settled at a table, and had small talk. Then, I dropped it on him and asked why he disappeared on me out of nowhere. His response made me realize he is a man child, with a lot of emotional and social immaturity. He merely said "I got busy with work, and was getting busy" REALLY????? so I told him thats not a reason, and he replied "Just call me Harry Houdini" I ended the convo with "Well Mr Houdini, Im glad I was able to assist you in perfecting your disappearing act, I hope you got something out of it". Hello, closure. I usually dont go seeking out closure, but with him I needed it. And damn it, I got it! He couldnt even give me a real reason as to why he dumped me. I walked away that night feeling on top of the world knowing I am better off with out him, and was hoping he would never call or text me (or email me) again.

And thats all I have to say about that. So Friday I took my final for the worst class ever. I think I may have done better than I did on the midterm,but there is still a really good chance of me failing. OH WELL. So I spent the better part of this weekend studying my tail off for GI. Saturday night, Carrie came and saved me and took me for pizza at a place I have been wanting to try up the street. We ate all but 2 slices of an extra large pizza, and wolfed down the AMAZING garlic bread. Our super cute (and super young) waiter decided we are his second favorite customers and he sat and talked to us for probably an hour. He was adorable. And super sweet (as well as awkward). I just may have to go back in to flirt with him again. He surfs. And was an extra in movie. Just call me Mrs. Robinson, because Im gonna rock (not rob) that cradle!!

I should probably buy this book.

So last night I slept at the meathead household, and met one of their new girlfriends. She is super nice. I am glad they are happy. Today I took the GI final, and I think it went ok. I hope. No time to dwell, have another final and a practical tomorrow. I spent all day in a study room, wanted to eat my own hair. Then, as the night wound down, I found out that Ron Burgundy would be home so I could get the fancy tupperware I left at his house. The whole ride to his house I was nervous, sad, and had a pit in my stomach. Will he invite me in? will he smile? Will I end up staying? Thank God he had plans to go watch football, because it made it very easy to have a short trip. I tried SO HARD to hide the pain on my face when I saw him, and Im not sure I did a good job of it. He was so friendly, hot as usual, and smiling. I miss him. SO FREAKIN MUCH. I took the fancy tupperware and bolted out of there, and got in my car before he could see the first tear. Its going to be a LONG TIME until I find peace and closure with this. And I have a feeling over winter break when I am bored and lonely I will find myself thinking about him everyday until I break down and tell him how much i miss him and need to see him, in which case I will probably hang out with him, and fall in love all over again. Lord give me strength. I also know that because Im "mourning this loss" that I am no where ready to meet someone new. I dont even want to. I do want to go out Friday night, get wasted and shake my ass all over the club. That however, is neither here nor there. Ron Burgundy, you have such a hold on me. Its crippling.